waiting. for what? i don’t know. but i’m aware that my life will continue moving on. whether IT’s gonna come or not. whether i’d like to go on or not. whether i’m prepared or not. whether it’s within my pace or not. whether i’m with the people i want to be with or not.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
ok. got it out. now there's more space for the holiday cheers. =D
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Saturday, December 17, 2005
as requested
it's 5:15 am. still awake coz...
...i came home from the sfc christmas party at around 1am. 'twas a fun night!
...alnie's here! we've been talking for hours 'bout the good old days in college.
...i'm in front of the pc again. alnie and i both have computers on our laps right now..
...chrissy wants me to update my blog ;) time flew by so fast, i didn't notice that my last entry was still in november..
...i helped alnie set up her blog. yey! another addition to the blogging community!
...i will be calling my citech friends in a while (NYEBAH na 'to!). and in that note,, i'm ending this entry. =)
...i came home from the sfc christmas party at around 1am. 'twas a fun night!
...alnie's here! we've been talking for hours 'bout the good old days in college.
...i'm in front of the pc again. alnie and i both have computers on our laps right now..
...chrissy wants me to update my blog ;) time flew by so fast, i didn't notice that my last entry was still in november..
...i helped alnie set up her blog. yey! another addition to the blogging community!
...i will be calling my citech friends in a while (NYEBAH na 'to!). and in that note,, i'm ending this entry. =)
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
if i was in a love story..
something i picked up while blogsurfing... syempre naaliw daw ako hehe. at uy, may oras ulit ako para sa ganito!
You're Katherine "Kiki" Harrison(Julia Roberts - 'America's Sweethearts')
Always the shoulder to cry on, you try to juggle the lives of those you care about while battling with your own. You have a beautiful smile, a wonderful sense of humor and charming wit, but often go unnoticed. Too many times others get the spotlight, but that's ok by you. You don't need the limelight, you just want that special someone to recognize you for the loveable and loving person you are.
You're booksy, artsy, and creative. You prefer toned down, subdued classic clothing to express your personality.
You do have a hard time expressing yourself outwardly, and often turn to some 'thing' for comfort, while you carry the brunt on your shoulders.
You're ambitious and professional and succeed at everything you tackle.
All in all, you're the rock.
Which Romantic Comedy Heroine Are You?
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You're Katherine "Kiki" Harrison(Julia Roberts - 'America's Sweethearts')
Always the shoulder to cry on, you try to juggle the lives of those you care about while battling with your own. You have a beautiful smile, a wonderful sense of humor and charming wit, but often go unnoticed. Too many times others get the spotlight, but that's ok by you. You don't need the limelight, you just want that special someone to recognize you for the loveable and loving person you are.
You're booksy, artsy, and creative. You prefer toned down, subdued classic clothing to express your personality.
You do have a hard time expressing yourself outwardly, and often turn to some 'thing' for comfort, while you carry the brunt on your shoulders.
You're ambitious and professional and succeed at everything you tackle.
All in all, you're the rock.
Which Romantic Comedy Heroine Are You?
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Monday, November 28, 2005
a bit of this and that
+ + + + +
i just donated blood yesterday. first time. the nurses were a bit concerned coz i have small veins. the needle was big, and they had to fill up a big bag (500cc? of my blood). but everything went well. no collapsed vein, it didn't hurt more than the usual, and i got a free t-shirt as a souvenir. i'm hoping to get a red cross card in the mail to use for next time. ;) but it's sad to hear that even if 90% of the (U.S.) population is eligible to donate blood, only 5% does it.
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feels like christmas already! did some decorating this weekend, and i'm back to wearing layers and layers of clothing to keep me warm. even hook can't stand the cold - she now sleeps under the covers.
t x t
oh yeah, after more than a year of being out of it, i'm back in the sms world. it took several bunches of things to come up before i finally gave in and got a cellphone. the most frustrating of them all is paying $1.80 for getting ahold of my brother through a call box. really, i could've gotten a cup of coffee with that! hmp!
i just donated blood yesterday. first time. the nurses were a bit concerned coz i have small veins. the needle was big, and they had to fill up a big bag (500cc? of my blood). but everything went well. no collapsed vein, it didn't hurt more than the usual, and i got a free t-shirt as a souvenir. i'm hoping to get a red cross card in the mail to use for next time. ;) but it's sad to hear that even if 90% of the (U.S.) population is eligible to donate blood, only 5% does it.
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feels like christmas already! did some decorating this weekend, and i'm back to wearing layers and layers of clothing to keep me warm. even hook can't stand the cold - she now sleeps under the covers.
t x t
oh yeah, after more than a year of being out of it, i'm back in the sms world. it took several bunches of things to come up before i finally gave in and got a cellphone. the most frustrating of them all is paying $1.80 for getting ahold of my brother through a call box. really, i could've gotten a cup of coffee with that! hmp!
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
faces, places, spaces in between
finally! some of my pictures can now be viewed by clicking the appropriate link on my blog. took me so long to finish, coz my QA instincts kept on bugging me. pun intended. =p i had to select the pictures i wanted to share, upload them, organize and describe each one, and of course, run a test on how my pictures are going to be seen. i had to double check if the links worked, the pictures were showing just right, the captions had no errors on them, etc. OC!!!
some of the pictures refer to the bits i've already written about. happy browsing!
some of the pictures refer to the bits i've already written about. happy browsing!
Thursday, November 10, 2005
it's that simple
i just want to be with you, be where you are. =)
i'm just psyched with all these planning we've been doing for the february concert. of course, it's all about l.o.v.e. the program starts with depicting how sweet it is to love (and be loved by you). ;) then it goes on to the hardships that an individual inevitably encounters when in a romantic relationship. eventually, we seek for something better and more meaningful: the perfect love. this is the point where God's love is introduced in the concert. and in feeling all of His love going around, we hope for the audience to say (just as i have been repeating over and over again):
i just want to be with You, be where You are. =)
Australia Hillsongs "By Your Side"
are you in love? i am in love! do you want to be in love?? =D
taglines from the concert teaser. will post it when i get the time. andun ako ;)
i'm just psyched with all these planning we've been doing for the february concert. of course, it's all about l.o.v.e. the program starts with depicting how sweet it is to love (and be loved by you). ;) then it goes on to the hardships that an individual inevitably encounters when in a romantic relationship. eventually, we seek for something better and more meaningful: the perfect love. this is the point where God's love is introduced in the concert. and in feeling all of His love going around, we hope for the audience to say (just as i have been repeating over and over again):
i just want to be with You, be where You are. =)
Australia Hillsongs "By Your Side"
are you in love? i am in love! do you want to be in love?? =D
taglines from the concert teaser. will post it when i get the time. andun ako ;)
Friday, November 04, 2005
when it rains...
where was i? yes, wednesday. i actually got off work at 4:30pm (instead of the usual 6:00) coz there was some sort of protest scheduled for 5-11pm in our area. they closed the street near the federal building (wilshire blvd), which was only a few blocks from us. i planned on riding the bus, but ended up waiting for my brother at a nearby bookstore coz the bus route was also messed up. when i reached home, i only had around 15 minutes to freshen up and eat, since i had to go to the music ministry (MM) / script writing (SW) meeting. 'twas fun doing the vocal exercises. i wasn't supposed to be part of that, but the SW meeting didn't start right away, so i hung around with the MM for a while.
thursday afternoon, i had to take the bus again. as luck would have it, the 6:05 bus didn't come. i had to stand and wait in the cold for 40 minutes before a bus arrived. i got home at 7:40 and a few minutes later, i was picked up by my sfc household head coz we had a household (HH) scheduled that night. in atsca terms, HH head - cell leader; HH - prayer meeting. i got home at 11pm, did some chores, then chatted with a friend before finally curling up in bed.
today, another bus day. both to and from work. i had breakfast at starbucks since i rode the 7:30am bus and reached LA too early (8:35). later, another MM/SW meeting. tomorrow, service for the CLP. sunday, basketball/tennis/badminton. monday? haha, we'll see.
so how come i am able to write all these? my boss is out for a week and fortunately, it's not that busy at work. ;) ;) ;) i just feel so alive these days. =)
thursday afternoon, i had to take the bus again. as luck would have it, the 6:05 bus didn't come. i had to stand and wait in the cold for 40 minutes before a bus arrived. i got home at 7:40 and a few minutes later, i was picked up by my sfc household head coz we had a household (HH) scheduled that night. in atsca terms, HH head - cell leader; HH - prayer meeting. i got home at 11pm, did some chores, then chatted with a friend before finally curling up in bed.
today, another bus day. both to and from work. i had breakfast at starbucks since i rode the 7:30am bus and reached LA too early (8:35). later, another MM/SW meeting. tomorrow, service for the CLP. sunday, basketball/tennis/badminton. monday? haha, we'll see.
so how come i am able to write all these? my boss is out for a week and fortunately, it's not that busy at work. ;) ;) ;) i just feel so alive these days. =)
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
B-b-b-b-u-s-y
friday night, as planned, we went to knott's berry farm's halloween haunt. i paid $36 dollars to make a fool of myself by getting scared of all the fake monsters around the place. nadapa pa ko!! huhu.. but i had a great time! i think we were around 38 in the group, so you can just imagine how fun and crazy that could be. reminded me of my EK trip with friends before college graduation..
come saturday night, wow! i'm aching all over! i guess it's because of all the running and pushing we did. and of course, i've got a blue knee (c/o the monster who chased us silly). but that didn't stop me from getting up at 6:30 the following morning to play basketball and badminton with a couple of friends. YES, i played badminton!!!! =) grabe, i miss playing it on a regular basis! after that, my sister asked me to come to a dance practice for the WOW GK Concert. waaat?? ako, sasayaw?? but i couldn't say no, so there goes my lazy sunday afternoon.
monday, i wasn't feeling too good (just physically). but my boss chose that day for me to go outside and breathe some "fresh" air. UCLA (University of California Los Angeles) was just a mile away, and somebody needed a wireless pc card to be installed to her pc. so off i go, bringing a laptop with me to complete the getup. when i reached the client's apartment, it felt like i was back in my college days. this tall cute guy even opened the door for me. *kilig* ;) anyway, i remembered the times when i was walking around admu with a laptop on my shoulder, going from one point of the school towards another faraway point. i will definitely go to school again when the situation permits me to.
am i done? not yet! last night, i attended the first of a series of meetings that might make me a very busy girl for the next four months. an sfc concert is being prepared for early next year. i'm being asked to be part of the script writing team, but i'll be helping out with the audio visual team too. i actually made a short promotional video for it a few weeks ago. naks, i got to use my adobe premiere skills.. hehe. here's a dilemma (not!!) = later, i need to choose between going to the dance practice or to the script writing meeting. guess where i'm going?? hehe..
so, have i had enough? nuh-uh! even if i'm feeling a little queasy, i'm excited for everything that has happened, and for all things that are still to come! =)
come saturday night, wow! i'm aching all over! i guess it's because of all the running and pushing we did. and of course, i've got a blue knee (c/o the monster who chased us silly). but that didn't stop me from getting up at 6:30 the following morning to play basketball and badminton with a couple of friends. YES, i played badminton!!!! =) grabe, i miss playing it on a regular basis! after that, my sister asked me to come to a dance practice for the WOW GK Concert. waaat?? ako, sasayaw?? but i couldn't say no, so there goes my lazy sunday afternoon.
monday, i wasn't feeling too good (just physically). but my boss chose that day for me to go outside and breathe some "fresh" air. UCLA (University of California Los Angeles) was just a mile away, and somebody needed a wireless pc card to be installed to her pc. so off i go, bringing a laptop with me to complete the getup. when i reached the client's apartment, it felt like i was back in my college days. this tall cute guy even opened the door for me. *kilig* ;) anyway, i remembered the times when i was walking around admu with a laptop on my shoulder, going from one point of the school towards another faraway point. i will definitely go to school again when the situation permits me to.
am i done? not yet! last night, i attended the first of a series of meetings that might make me a very busy girl for the next four months. an sfc concert is being prepared for early next year. i'm being asked to be part of the script writing team, but i'll be helping out with the audio visual team too. i actually made a short promotional video for it a few weeks ago. naks, i got to use my adobe premiere skills.. hehe. here's a dilemma (not!!) = later, i need to choose between going to the dance practice or to the script writing meeting. guess where i'm going?? hehe..
so, have i had enough? nuh-uh! even if i'm feeling a little queasy, i'm excited for everything that has happened, and for all things that are still to come! =)
Thursday, October 27, 2005
slumbook question
"jill, wats ur latest hobby nowadays?"
> not that much of a pc addict anymore. hurray!
> exercise:
=> tennis - not that much coz of sched concerns
- i still prefer badminton
=> basketball - played just once - but we're gonna play again
- i suck! haha..
=> walking - just whenever time permits me to - i'm lovin' it! ;)
> singing - sfc songs, rock, admu (jesuit) songs, rock, opm, rock,,,,, - rock?! yes, rock!! disturbed, nickelback, audioslave, trapt, staind, crossfade, creed, saliva, breaking benjamin, and the list goes on and on, and on, and on...
> playing with hook =)
> a bit of tv/dvd - i rarely watch, but lately i've been craving for action movies - batman begins, mummy 1&2, i robot, face/off - just about anything available at home.
>> not my hobby: scary movies/things - so why am i going to knott's scary halloween haunt (theme park) tomorrow??? waaah!!! hehe..
> not that much of a pc addict anymore. hurray!
> exercise:
=> tennis - not that much coz of sched concerns
- i still prefer badminton
=> basketball - played just once - but we're gonna play again
- i suck! haha..
=> walking - just whenever time permits me to - i'm lovin' it! ;)
> singing - sfc songs, rock, admu (jesuit) songs, rock, opm, rock,,,,, - rock?! yes, rock!! disturbed, nickelback, audioslave, trapt, staind, crossfade, creed, saliva, breaking benjamin, and the list goes on and on, and on, and on...
> playing with hook =)
> a bit of tv/dvd - i rarely watch, but lately i've been craving for action movies - batman begins, mummy 1&2, i robot, face/off - just about anything available at home.
>> not my hobby: scary movies/things - so why am i going to knott's scary halloween haunt (theme park) tomorrow??? waaah!!! hehe..
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
just do it!
my sister (ate ja) joined the Long Beach Marathon last October 16. it's for the Gawad Kalinga cause (check out gawadkalinga.org). she finished the 26.2 miles, with me and my other sister (june) walking with her during her last 8 miles. we were stationed at mile 18, us cheerers (complete with pom poms, chants and choreographed steps), and the sfc music ministry. haha, can you imagine me doing all that? even if i love walking, 8 miles is still a lot without proper training and warm up. and the last time i cheered like that was 2nd yr high school! haha.. our day started at 8am and ended at around 6pm since we ate yummy burgers (fuddruckers) before going home. fun, fun fun! i wanna do the marathon next year. =)
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
listening to the silent song
there are times when i sense that everything around me is too loud. or that everyone is always rushing ahead. our generation feasts on the abundance of the activities that one can do, with or without companions needed. it becomes automatic for us to be caught up with the latest trend in technology – 1gb space for email, mobile phones with cameras & mp3 players, ipod nano, sony psp, etc. a lot of times, we jump from one thing to the next, without considering if we really need (or even want) to do those things. there’s not a moment of silence to be appreciated since if we are not engaged in constant conversation (mind you, this is not necessarily communication), we busy ourselves with the television, the radio, the road (gimiks), or the computer. i admit i also let myself go with the flow of all the things i mentioned above. But i feel so different, in the sense that i am more accustomed to spending a lot of quiet moments (usually alone), and doing things slowly but surely.
no new posts for a while? yeah. i’ve been taking some moments of “silence,” trying to rid myself of the unnecessary activities so that i could listen and understand THE voice. i’m even shutting my brain off. i don’t want to think anymore and analyze about what’s happening, or what’s going to happen. i just want to live one day at a time. i need to quiet down so that i may see Him more clearly, follow Him more nearly, and love Him more dearly.
so no trivial entries for now. unless i can't help it. =) the little mindless stories that i post are actually part of what i want to share to all those who read my blog. but right now, i need to focus on listening.
no new posts for a while? yeah. i’ve been taking some moments of “silence,” trying to rid myself of the unnecessary activities so that i could listen and understand THE voice. i’m even shutting my brain off. i don’t want to think anymore and analyze about what’s happening, or what’s going to happen. i just want to live one day at a time. i need to quiet down so that i may see Him more clearly, follow Him more nearly, and love Him more dearly.
so no trivial entries for now. unless i can't help it. =) the little mindless stories that i post are actually part of what i want to share to all those who read my blog. but right now, i need to focus on listening.
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
live to be real
i think i'll follow the voice that calls within
sorry if i keep on typing these curious one liners.. will elaborate when i find out more about them ok =)
* phrases from ralph marston & johnny go
Sunday, August 14, 2005
here's a sporty bit
just wanted to share: i now have tennis buddies! =) it's a bit hard to switch from badminton to tennis (use of the arm instead of wrist), but i'm still enjoying it. good thing here, we don't have to pay for the court, unlike the P100 i usually spend for a night of badminton. we're scheduled to play once a week, and we're not stopping till we learn to play a decent game. =) i mentioned jogging and pancakes before... hehe, that was just a one time thing coz the SFC schedule didn't fit with it.
Sunday, August 07, 2005
contented sigh
refreshing bath after a busy day of bonding...
hook purring and sleeping comfortably on my lap...
soothing music...
cool air coming from the window beside me...
soft pillow, comforter, and a big bed...
tie dyed pajamas...
...no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should...
...keep peace in your soul...
...it is still a beautiful world...
- desiderata by Max Ehrmann-
Lord, thank you for this moment of consolation
hook purring and sleeping comfortably on my lap...
soothing music...
cool air coming from the window beside me...
soft pillow, comforter, and a big bed...
tie dyed pajamas...
...no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should...
...keep peace in your soul...
...it is still a beautiful world...
- desiderata by Max Ehrmann-
Lord, thank you for this moment of consolation
Friday, August 05, 2005
Sunday, July 31, 2005
scattered brain
<><><> yum yum yum! just ate baked ziti and lasagna from fazoli's!
<><><> watched up close and personal yesterday. i'd like to have tally atwater's (michelle pfeiffer) drive to achieve her dream. i wanna kick my lazy butt in shape!
<><><> why do people hate it when somebody dies in a movie? for me, there's nothing wrong with being given the whole picture, the good as well as the bad. coz reality is not all about the happily ever after.
<><><> i have this very old shirt that i love. it's already around 11yrs old, torn and disintegrating, but i know that i'd still be keeping it for a very long time. why? sometimes things are just the way they are, period.
<><><> happy feast day to st. ignatius! belated to st. benedict (july 11), and advanced to st. clare (august 11).
<><><> "go where you are most moved to love." - i don't remember whose quote. hehe
<><><> watched up close and personal yesterday. i'd like to have tally atwater's (michelle pfeiffer) drive to achieve her dream. i wanna kick my lazy butt in shape!
<><><> why do people hate it when somebody dies in a movie? for me, there's nothing wrong with being given the whole picture, the good as well as the bad. coz reality is not all about the happily ever after.
<><><> i have this very old shirt that i love. it's already around 11yrs old, torn and disintegrating, but i know that i'd still be keeping it for a very long time. why? sometimes things are just the way they are, period.
<><><> happy feast day to st. ignatius! belated to st. benedict (july 11), and advanced to st. clare (august 11).
<><><> "go where you are most moved to love." - i don't remember whose quote. hehe
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
fine, let me answer the question
kumusta, you say?
here are just some of the weekend activities i've been busy with over the past few months:
07/15 to 07/17: enjoyed curling up in bed with a good book. umm, what's that book again? the one i was supposed to be reading throughout the said weekend? hehe..
07/09: went to the beach - fun! we were near the LAX airport, so we could see and hear the airplanes above us every few minutes. and i guess there were some leftover fireworks from the july 4 celebration, coz we saw several that night.
07/02: had friends over for dinner - sisig, bbq, coleslaw, baked mac. was sick, but still managed to eat a lot. yum yum!
06/24 to 06/26: went to sta. clarita CLP (christian life program) dedication on friday night, then to the las vegas dedication on saturday night. yeah, this was that vegas trip i wrote about in the summer bits entry.
06/18: officially became a member of SFC (CLP dedication). performed "the sound of music" in front of a big crowd (haha), and watched "sister act" & "beauty and the beast" as presented by my fellow new members.
03/12 to 06/11: attended CLP talks, as well as after-session gimiks wherever - bowling, birthday dinners, videoke nights, & just plain tambay wherever. there were a few "free" saturdays (meaning, no talks), but we always managed to get together.
case in point:
05/28 to 05/29: went to huntington beach & spent overnight at a hotel. see the highs and lows entry for details.
i can't remember any vacant weekend since march! oh well. i'm just going with the flow here. kumusta? go figure. =p
here are just some of the weekend activities i've been busy with over the past few months:
07/15 to 07/17: enjoyed curling up in bed with a good book. umm, what's that book again? the one i was supposed to be reading throughout the said weekend? hehe..
07/09: went to the beach - fun! we were near the LAX airport, so we could see and hear the airplanes above us every few minutes. and i guess there were some leftover fireworks from the july 4 celebration, coz we saw several that night.
07/02: had friends over for dinner - sisig, bbq, coleslaw, baked mac. was sick, but still managed to eat a lot. yum yum!
06/24 to 06/26: went to sta. clarita CLP (christian life program) dedication on friday night, then to the las vegas dedication on saturday night. yeah, this was that vegas trip i wrote about in the summer bits entry.
06/18: officially became a member of SFC (CLP dedication). performed "the sound of music" in front of a big crowd (haha), and watched "sister act" & "beauty and the beast" as presented by my fellow new members.
03/12 to 06/11: attended CLP talks, as well as after-session gimiks wherever - bowling, birthday dinners, videoke nights, & just plain tambay wherever. there were a few "free" saturdays (meaning, no talks), but we always managed to get together.
case in point:
05/28 to 05/29: went to huntington beach & spent overnight at a hotel. see the highs and lows entry for details.
i can't remember any vacant weekend since march! oh well. i'm just going with the flow here. kumusta? go figure. =p
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
calling the attention of "li'l cute me"
who are you? in case you don't remember, you have a comment on one of my entries. please identify yourself, even if it's just through email or something. coz as a lot people already know about me, i don't like being kept in the dark. i don't want to be left hanging if i have the option of having something right away. for instance, if someone tells me that he/she has news, but will have to tell later, or will not tell at all, that's torture! don't mention anything if you're not going to give me the details! bitin e...
however, if it's something like waiting for the next harry potter book, that's ok. i'm excited about that coz i really can't do anything about it except to be at the mall as soon as the book is released. so that's exactly what i'm going to do this friday. ;)
in the case of the crisis in the Philippines, there are already too many voices. i can't afford to read and listen to each and every story, as well as create my own "reflection paper" on it. it'll just make me crazy. nothing for me to do but pray, especially since i'm so far away.
oh yeah, that's right. i'm writing this at home, on a work day. didn't feel like going. hehe... okay, my brother and i got really sick yesterday, and i was supposed to take the bus today since i feel better now. to cut the story short, i waited at the wrong bus stop, and decided to just go home and rest. so here i am. =)
however, if it's something like waiting for the next harry potter book, that's ok. i'm excited about that coz i really can't do anything about it except to be at the mall as soon as the book is released. so that's exactly what i'm going to do this friday. ;)
in the case of the crisis in the Philippines, there are already too many voices. i can't afford to read and listen to each and every story, as well as create my own "reflection paper" on it. it'll just make me crazy. nothing for me to do but pray, especially since i'm so far away.
oh yeah, that's right. i'm writing this at home, on a work day. didn't feel like going. hehe... okay, my brother and i got really sick yesterday, and i was supposed to take the bus today since i feel better now. to cut the story short, i waited at the wrong bus stop, and decided to just go home and rest. so here i am. =)
Sunday, July 10, 2005
summer bits
what if whenever you go somewhere, everything just goes according to plan, and you don't run into any kind of problems? when you're asked about the trip, what would you say? in contrast to all the usual "ok lang" answers, here are some bits for you...
what happens in vegas... june 2005
friday night, we made our way to vegas. little did we know that we'd be having a stop over in mojave (for we got lost), where all you could see was the highway, the grassy plains, and some rabbits every now and then. too late did we see not just one, but two rabbits crossing the road as we were passing by. splat! poor bunnies. =(
sunday afternoon, we struck out again. while on the freeway, one of our tires gave out. we had to change the tire and wait for help under the heat of the nevada sun. fortunately our other friends drove by at the time and saw us. instead of feeling bad about all of these, we just took the opportunity of taking pictures along the freeway to keep as souvenirs of our experience.
row, row, row your boat in galera... may 2004
my last beach outing in the philippines was when nine of my citech friends and i went to puerto galera. we stayed friday night at one place, so we could go to the bus station together at around 4am. when we reached galera, we had to wait for a few hours before we could settle in our rooms, because they were still being "prepared" (in other words, the rooms were still occupied).
i remember being hungry lots of times coz of our luck with the places that we went to for food ("mam wala na pong pork kebab..... wala pong hot water, iinitin pa po kasi.... break time na po namin, wala nang mags-serve.....").
still, i enjoyed shopping for tie-dyed pj's & anklets, snorkeling, strolling, people watching, and of course, eating that crushed ice thing with syrup, milk & chocolate.
on our way home, the waves were so big during the boat trip. most of my friends got scared and clung to one another for dear life. as for me, i was as calm as though i was at home, watching everything on tv. hehe..
what happens in vegas... june 2005
friday night, we made our way to vegas. little did we know that we'd be having a stop over in mojave (for we got lost), where all you could see was the highway, the grassy plains, and some rabbits every now and then. too late did we see not just one, but two rabbits crossing the road as we were passing by. splat! poor bunnies. =(
sunday afternoon, we struck out again. while on the freeway, one of our tires gave out. we had to change the tire and wait for help under the heat of the nevada sun. fortunately our other friends drove by at the time and saw us. instead of feeling bad about all of these, we just took the opportunity of taking pictures along the freeway to keep as souvenirs of our experience.
row, row, row your boat in galera... may 2004
my last beach outing in the philippines was when nine of my citech friends and i went to puerto galera. we stayed friday night at one place, so we could go to the bus station together at around 4am. when we reached galera, we had to wait for a few hours before we could settle in our rooms, because they were still being "prepared" (in other words, the rooms were still occupied).
i remember being hungry lots of times coz of our luck with the places that we went to for food ("mam wala na pong pork kebab..... wala pong hot water, iinitin pa po kasi.... break time na po namin, wala nang mags-serve.....").
still, i enjoyed shopping for tie-dyed pj's & anklets, snorkeling, strolling, people watching, and of course, eating that crushed ice thing with syrup, milk & chocolate.
on our way home, the waves were so big during the boat trip. most of my friends got scared and clung to one another for dear life. as for me, i was as calm as though i was at home, watching everything on tv. hehe..
Thursday, June 23, 2005
not at all that bad
a lot of times, i let thoughts of the past linger too much on my mind. but there are also times when i get too distracted with present concerns and random everyday things. it comes to a point where i can't even answer a simple "kumusta ka na?" coz i honestly don't know how i've been.
recently, i tried facing some of my concerns. my fears. frustrations. so of course, i had to vent out some of the emotions that i didn't want to feel. anyway, i'm still here. i might sound too serious or too pensive or what, but i'm actually okay. generally.
happy things for the day:
» San Nicolas biscuit breakfast
» Longganisa dinner
» Cheesecake Swirl dessert
» Hook > she's getting too big too fast! but she's adapting the puss in boots pa-cute face,, kakagigil! =)
» Game 7 - San Antonio Spurs vs Detroit Pistons > Yey Spurs! =)
» no more classes for my sister starting tomorrow > minus one carpool stopover > plus 30min sleep! =)
recently, i tried facing some of my concerns. my fears. frustrations. so of course, i had to vent out some of the emotions that i didn't want to feel. anyway, i'm still here. i might sound too serious or too pensive or what, but i'm actually okay. generally.
happy things for the day:
» San Nicolas biscuit breakfast
» Longganisa dinner
» Cheesecake Swirl dessert
» Hook > she's getting too big too fast! but she's adapting the puss in boots pa-cute face,, kakagigil! =)
» Game 7 - San Antonio Spurs vs Detroit Pistons > Yey Spurs! =)
» no more classes for my sister starting tomorrow > minus one carpool stopover > plus 30min sleep! =)
Monday, May 30, 2005
highs and lows
i haven't been writing much coz as i said before, i want to try some things that i don't usually give time for. so what happened? nothing concrete yet, but at least i'm not stuck in a rut. i'd like to always dare myself to get out of my comfort zone. i might be a slowpoke, but at least i'm moving. can't list out the results of my effort yet, and i feel i'm quite on the verge of doubting myself again, but all will be good.
.....
oh yeah, the weekend outing is simply great. =) didn't get to swim, but had fun with dodge ball watching, hotdog&marshmallow bonfire cooking, the stories, drinks, and whatever kind of bonding activity we did - convoy bloopers, listening to those who had too much to drink, knocking on the wrong room, and of course, picture taking!!! haha.. looking forward to summer, so we can go to the beach again..
when we got home, i felt a little sadness due to the fact that even if i enjoyed the weekend so much, i feel like nothing changed. it's just a drag to feel a little let down by my own actions. I know this is vague, but let's just put it this way for now: I know i'm not perfect, but it just bums me out – not being able to do anything for something I really want.
.....
on to another cheerful topic: i couldn't stop laughing my heart out while watching the citech video my grandma brought from the philippines!!! =) i've been waiting for this for weeks, and it definitely made me look crazy, watching, laughing and answering back at the messages addressed to me. to add to my citech hype, i drank C2, wore the tie dyed pj's and palawan shirt pasalubong, and even played the usual songs that we played in the office before. =)
.....
oh yeah, the weekend outing is simply great. =) didn't get to swim, but had fun with dodge ball watching, hotdog&marshmallow bonfire cooking, the stories, drinks, and whatever kind of bonding activity we did - convoy bloopers, listening to those who had too much to drink, knocking on the wrong room, and of course, picture taking!!! haha.. looking forward to summer, so we can go to the beach again..
when we got home, i felt a little sadness due to the fact that even if i enjoyed the weekend so much, i feel like nothing changed. it's just a drag to feel a little let down by my own actions. I know this is vague, but let's just put it this way for now: I know i'm not perfect, but it just bums me out – not being able to do anything for something I really want.
.....
on to another cheerful topic: i couldn't stop laughing my heart out while watching the citech video my grandma brought from the philippines!!! =) i've been waiting for this for weeks, and it definitely made me look crazy, watching, laughing and answering back at the messages addressed to me. to add to my citech hype, i drank C2, wore the tie dyed pj's and palawan shirt pasalubong, and even played the usual songs that we played in the office before. =)
Thursday, May 26, 2005
sloth
here i am, too lazy to update my blog properly, so i'll just provide a few lines for each thought.
Hook: 6 week old kitten who's so kulit and hyper. just like byggs (may he rest in peace), he usually wakes us up in the morning. come to think of it, he's constantly waking us with all the jumping and pouncing he does at night!
slept at 7pm last night, woke up 545am. there seems to be some kind of sleep spell that's affecting me and a few of my friends these days. huh.
bought a pair of (much needed) pants last weekend. 'twas the first time i felt that i miss shopping. too bad i don't have the budget for it yet.
my ears are ringing. i guess hearing too much shouting (from my boss) within the past four months will gradually take its toll on a person. can't do much about it, it's part of his personality.
rode the bus again (and will be doing it 3 nights a week). kinda feels like my manila-pampanga bus rides, but so much better - no bad smell of any kind, just a 1-hour trip, and not too much traffic. my brother got a part time job that's from 6-11pm, so we can't carpool all the time anymore.
planning to go to the beach this weekend with SFC friends, and hopefully meet up with a college friend also. can't even feel too excited about it yet coz of whatever ill feelings i have right now (work, sleep, and something i can't quite describe yet. apathy again? i hope not).
been too long since i wrote, the few tidbits i've been meaning to share became a lot more than i anticipated.
* yawn *
whoa!! just saw a pic from 2nd year high school! after 10 years, the classroom still looks so familiar, as if i'd been there yesterday..
ok, stopping here now. gotta sleep again. hehe..
Hook: 6 week old kitten who's so kulit and hyper. just like byggs (may he rest in peace), he usually wakes us up in the morning. come to think of it, he's constantly waking us with all the jumping and pouncing he does at night!
slept at 7pm last night, woke up 545am. there seems to be some kind of sleep spell that's affecting me and a few of my friends these days. huh.
bought a pair of (much needed) pants last weekend. 'twas the first time i felt that i miss shopping. too bad i don't have the budget for it yet.
my ears are ringing. i guess hearing too much shouting (from my boss) within the past four months will gradually take its toll on a person. can't do much about it, it's part of his personality.
rode the bus again (and will be doing it 3 nights a week). kinda feels like my manila-pampanga bus rides, but so much better - no bad smell of any kind, just a 1-hour trip, and not too much traffic. my brother got a part time job that's from 6-11pm, so we can't carpool all the time anymore.
planning to go to the beach this weekend with SFC friends, and hopefully meet up with a college friend also. can't even feel too excited about it yet coz of whatever ill feelings i have right now (work, sleep, and something i can't quite describe yet. apathy again? i hope not).
been too long since i wrote, the few tidbits i've been meaning to share became a lot more than i anticipated.
* yawn *
whoa!! just saw a pic from 2nd year high school! after 10 years, the classroom still looks so familiar, as if i'd been there yesterday..
ok, stopping here now. gotta sleep again. hehe..
Sunday, May 08, 2005
baby steps
my sister and i went walking around our neighborhood last saturday. it's so nice to just look at the trees, flowers, birds, squirrels, dogs, and just about everything around us. i was actually trying to clear my head at the time, but i didn't exactly get the effect i was hoping for. maybe because i don't even know what i wanted to happen afterwards. but that's ok. good thing the weather is now becoming more bearable for me, coz i'd like to have an exercise routine again. if it was badminton and shakey's dinner last year, it's now going to be jogging and pancakes breakfast. ;)
i just want to try a bunch of new things. little things. tiny steps for now. to experience bits and pieces of the unknown. to let go of my firm grasp of the past.
i just want to try a bunch of new things. little things. tiny steps for now. to experience bits and pieces of the unknown. to let go of my firm grasp of the past.
Thursday, May 05, 2005
book+coffee+cinnamon roll =) =) =)
woohoo!!!
On May 6, 2005, you ordered:
2 copies of "Harry Potter And The Half-blood Prince, Harry Potter Series #6 "by Rowling, J. K. / Grandpre, Mary
Price: $17.99
Publication date: Jul 16, 2005
=) =) =)
the book will be available by midnight, so we'll be going to the bookstore as soon as we get off from work. would want to get started asap! hehe. i'm not actually a harry potter fanatic. i just love reading books, and harry potter's one of the characters who has been with me for some time now. i'm quite loyal eh... ;)
On May 6, 2005, you ordered:
2 copies of "Harry Potter And The Half-blood Prince, Harry Potter Series #6 "by Rowling, J. K. / Grandpre, Mary
Price: $17.99
Publication date: Jul 16, 2005
=) =) =)
the book will be available by midnight, so we'll be going to the bookstore as soon as we get off from work. would want to get started asap! hehe. i'm not actually a harry potter fanatic. i just love reading books, and harry potter's one of the characters who has been with me for some time now. i'm quite loyal eh... ;)
Thursday, April 28, 2005
my music
been memorizing some lyrics again:
in the waiting line [zero seven]
..Wasting my time.....In the waiting line.....Everyone's taking everything they can..
cold [crossfade]
..I'm always wrapped up in.....Things I cannnot win.....I'm sorry for the way I am.....I never meant to be so cold to you..
rest in pieces [saliva]
..You got much closer than I thought you did..
sometimes [gabrielle]
..We have our highs and lows.....Just like everybody else.....Doesn’t mean that we walk away.....It’s the little things that keep me holding on..
here without you [three doors down]
..It gets hard but it won't take away my love..
in the waiting line [zero seven]
..Wasting my time.....In the waiting line.....Everyone's taking everything they can..
cold [crossfade]
..I'm always wrapped up in.....Things I cannnot win.....I'm sorry for the way I am.....I never meant to be so cold to you..
rest in pieces [saliva]
..You got much closer than I thought you did..
sometimes [gabrielle]
..We have our highs and lows.....Just like everybody else.....Doesn’t mean that we walk away.....It’s the little things that keep me holding on..
here without you [three doors down]
..It gets hard but it won't take away my love..
Saturday, April 23, 2005
those were the days
yeah sorry, i promised myself not to dwell on the past, but a friend just sent me some pictures from last year so i indulged in reliving some great moments of my past few years. i even looked at pictures i already have just to enjoy some more..
ganun pala feeling ng sinu-surprise.. my citech friends prepared a despedida party for me last august 2004, and it was such an amazing feeling, having them all with me that time. even when i already knew there was something going on (only after i saw familiar cars parked on our street), i was still shocked to see my qa family gathered in our apartment. i remember trembling all over during that night. i could barely absorb everything that happened, but thanks to the pictures, i now have a tangible memento of that event. =)
ganun pala feeling ng sinu-surprise.. my citech friends prepared a despedida party for me last august 2004, and it was such an amazing feeling, having them all with me that time. even when i already knew there was something going on (only after i saw familiar cars parked on our street), i was still shocked to see my qa family gathered in our apartment. i remember trembling all over during that night. i could barely absorb everything that happened, but thanks to the pictures, i now have a tangible memento of that event. =)
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
i like.
network administrator: a title i didn't imagine i would have. yes, i'm the designated computer person at home, and i'm actually interested in this. but i didn't expect to be good at it (not good:GOOD, but still) since i have a history of not pursuing my interests:
* playing the piano - all my sisters had lessons when we were kids. using MY piano. i don't know exactly why i didn't do the lessons. i learned only by guessing the notes and depending on the basic lessons they taught in high school.
* playing the guitar - i got a guitar as a birthday gift in high school, but didn't even get to use it. i resorted to enjoying by listening others play.
* singing in the choir - again, 2 of my sisters joined the church choir and i didn't. thanks to AtSCA, i was given the chance to involve myself in this.
* my crush(es) - hahaha. i'm not fond of regrets, but it just makes me frustrated sometimes when i think of all the moments where i could've enjoyed being with my crush, instead of worrying about him noticing my infatuation.
* playing the piano - all my sisters had lessons when we were kids. using MY piano. i don't know exactly why i didn't do the lessons. i learned only by guessing the notes and depending on the basic lessons they taught in high school.
* playing the guitar - i got a guitar as a birthday gift in high school, but didn't even get to use it. i resorted to enjoying by listening others play.
* singing in the choir - again, 2 of my sisters joined the church choir and i didn't. thanks to AtSCA, i was given the chance to involve myself in this.
* my crush(es) - hahaha. i'm not fond of regrets, but it just makes me frustrated sometimes when i think of all the moments where i could've enjoyed being with my crush, instead of worrying about him noticing my infatuation.
Saturday, April 09, 2005
what's done is done
[green day]
do you have the time
to listen to me whine
about nothing and everything
all at once?
The Pope is dead.
Byggs also died last sunday. waah! - didn't even get to figure out what really caused his sickness.
i got sick last monday. first sick leave in my current job.
these are only some of the reasons why i wasn't too eager to post in my blog.
but well, what's done is done.
.....
funny how we connect too much to material things.
*a few weeks back, i restored my laptop to its original settings. i backed up all my college data, but i still felt something stir in me while erasing my files and running the restoration disk.
*i remember forcing myself not to think about my nokia 3210 cellphone when it was snatched during college senior year. i just bought a new casing that i liked very much (dark dark green), and i didn't even get to appreciate it for more than a few days!
*and then today, my brother lent me his backpack. what does this have to do with what i'm saying? this bag is just like the one my crush had. so i actually smiled and felt so good to see my brother's bag, coz it reminded me of this one time when i hugged my crush's bag. silly me. hehe.
so ok, it's actually the memories and the representation of these things that i am really attached to. i guess it's just more convenient to "feel" for a thing (that you can control and keep with you whenever you'd like it to be there) instead of a person. but still, as morrie says, i would rather put my energies into people.
do you have the time
to listen to me whine
about nothing and everything
all at once?
The Pope is dead.
Byggs also died last sunday. waah! - didn't even get to figure out what really caused his sickness.
i got sick last monday. first sick leave in my current job.
these are only some of the reasons why i wasn't too eager to post in my blog.
but well, what's done is done.
.....
funny how we connect too much to material things.
*a few weeks back, i restored my laptop to its original settings. i backed up all my college data, but i still felt something stir in me while erasing my files and running the restoration disk.
*i remember forcing myself not to think about my nokia 3210 cellphone when it was snatched during college senior year. i just bought a new casing that i liked very much (dark dark green), and i didn't even get to appreciate it for more than a few days!
*and then today, my brother lent me his backpack. what does this have to do with what i'm saying? this bag is just like the one my crush had. so i actually smiled and felt so good to see my brother's bag, coz it reminded me of this one time when i hugged my crush's bag. silly me. hehe.
so ok, it's actually the memories and the representation of these things that i am really attached to. i guess it's just more convenient to "feel" for a thing (that you can control and keep with you whenever you'd like it to be there) instead of a person. but still, as morrie says, i would rather put my energies into people.
Sunday, March 27, 2005
care to jump in the mix?
our garage had a great week! first off, we got a pool table today! wow, so heavy! another gift from craigslist. =) it needs some work to be done, since it sat in the rain a few times. but according to friends, it could be sold at least $1000 just as it is right now. good thing we had some help from some of the guys we met in the Singles for Christ sessions. took us more than 2hours to move it.
how about some drums? my sister's boss gave them to her, since her boss's son doesn't use them anymore. we're still missing a couch, and a tv/entertainment system, but i'm already looking forward to having friends over to our place when we get to arrange our garage. =)
jumping on to another bit, i watched the movie "In America" this afternoon. it's a story of a family migrating to the United States, constantly struggling to survive, but also spending happy moments with one another. the father had some problems connecting with his emotions, so his wife tells him to just make-believe he is happy. she actually said (or maybe someone else in the movie) that life IS make-believe => if you believe in it, it will happen, or is already happening. as i read some comments written about the movie, i stumbled upon a post that said our current situation or disposition affects the way we perceive the various things in our lives. and so i wonder why i like this movie so much? hehe.
to write down something else i also noticed: i haven't been able to remember my dreams these past few weeks. usually a dream or two would linger in my mind, making me wonder how it connects to my reality. but now, even if i wake up fine (meaning i am less sleepy and/or grumpy than usual when i get out of bed), i simply forget.
with all these mixed up stories, it just goes to show that my brain is slowly getting its old rhythm back. all the thoughts waiting (for so long) to buzz into life are flowing again. huh, typical. just when i said i haven't been thinking much these past months, here comes this rush.
how about some drums? my sister's boss gave them to her, since her boss's son doesn't use them anymore. we're still missing a couch, and a tv/entertainment system, but i'm already looking forward to having friends over to our place when we get to arrange our garage. =)
jumping on to another bit, i watched the movie "In America" this afternoon. it's a story of a family migrating to the United States, constantly struggling to survive, but also spending happy moments with one another. the father had some problems connecting with his emotions, so his wife tells him to just make-believe he is happy. she actually said (or maybe someone else in the movie) that life IS make-believe => if you believe in it, it will happen, or is already happening. as i read some comments written about the movie, i stumbled upon a post that said our current situation or disposition affects the way we perceive the various things in our lives. and so i wonder why i like this movie so much? hehe.
to write down something else i also noticed: i haven't been able to remember my dreams these past few weeks. usually a dream or two would linger in my mind, making me wonder how it connects to my reality. but now, even if i wake up fine (meaning i am less sleepy and/or grumpy than usual when i get out of bed), i simply forget.
with all these mixed up stories, it just goes to show that my brain is slowly getting its old rhythm back. all the thoughts waiting (for so long) to buzz into life are flowing again. huh, typical. just when i said i haven't been thinking much these past months, here comes this rush.
Monday, March 21, 2005
zzz...
haven't been sleeping well in our new home. i think it's mainly because of the cold weather. i'm so tired of putting on so many layers of clothing, but even if spring is here, there's still a lot of rain to come according to the forecast. so i guess i just have to sing myself to sleep..
[mraz]
sleeping to dream about you, and i'm so tired
of having to live without you..
just a little lullaby to keep myself from crying myself to sleep at night
[mraz]
sleep all, we sleep all day
sleep all, we sleep all day
over and over
[corrs]
only when i sleep, i see you in my dreams
got me spinning round and round
turning upside down
actually, even if i'm interrupted in my sleep, it doesn't really bother me right now. coz i noticed that i just stopped thinking about what's been happening to me lately in order to keep me from worrying or getting too frustrated. i just do what i can, and leave the rest to prayers.
one thing i am thankful for, even if i'm still busy these past weeks, at least it involved a lot of time for personal and family stuff. =) i don't ever want to equate life with work.
[mraz]
sleeping to dream about you, and i'm so tired
of having to live without you..
just a little lullaby to keep myself from crying myself to sleep at night
[mraz]
sleep all, we sleep all day
sleep all, we sleep all day
over and over
[corrs]
only when i sleep, i see you in my dreams
got me spinning round and round
turning upside down
actually, even if i'm interrupted in my sleep, it doesn't really bother me right now. coz i noticed that i just stopped thinking about what's been happening to me lately in order to keep me from worrying or getting too frustrated. i just do what i can, and leave the rest to prayers.
one thing i am thankful for, even if i'm still busy these past weeks, at least it involved a lot of time for personal and family stuff. =) i don't ever want to equate life with work.
Saturday, March 19, 2005
what's with me?
yes. i'll be writing about the everyday things here. will keep the philosophizing at a minimum. well, at least for the initial posts. ;) so, how's me? right now our dog, byggs, is lying beside my feet. he's around 3-4 months old, a black labrador and chow chow mix. he's blind, so it makes him extra special. he keeps on bumping into things, he gallops like a horse, and he is just so adorable! we got him through craigslist.org, a site that lets people post any of their ads: wanted, for sale, or free stuff. we want to get a cat also, but we haven't seen one that we like yet.
to enumerate some of the things that happened to me in the last six months (just to clear my head):
* stayed in a one bedroom apartment with my whole family since september 26, 2004 until january 31,2005. now currently in a 3-bedroom house with an arizona room (it's sort of a recreation room, but we used it as an extra bedroom), garage, and backyard. yahoo!
* bummed around on october and november of last year, while also trying my luck with online job hunting.
* started working on december as a project manager for the web development (particularly content management) business of a small company. so stressful. on february, shifted to being an administrative assistant for a computer rental and services company, while still doing 2 hours part time work for my first job. come march, dropped the extra 2 hours.
* last saturday, attended an orientation for the Christian Life Program (CLP) conducted by Singles for Christ. will be having around 10 sessions for it. reminded me of my AtSCA days..
ok, so much for the facts of my life. i'm still not sure how to go about my ramblings here, but i'll try to keep on posting. for now, this is it.
to enumerate some of the things that happened to me in the last six months (just to clear my head):
* stayed in a one bedroom apartment with my whole family since september 26, 2004 until january 31,2005. now currently in a 3-bedroom house with an arizona room (it's sort of a recreation room, but we used it as an extra bedroom), garage, and backyard. yahoo!
* bummed around on october and november of last year, while also trying my luck with online job hunting.
* started working on december as a project manager for the web development (particularly content management) business of a small company. so stressful. on february, shifted to being an administrative assistant for a computer rental and services company, while still doing 2 hours part time work for my first job. come march, dropped the extra 2 hours.
* last saturday, attended an orientation for the Christian Life Program (CLP) conducted by Singles for Christ. will be having around 10 sessions for it. reminded me of my AtSCA days..
ok, so much for the facts of my life. i'm still not sure how to go about my ramblings here, but i'll try to keep on posting. for now, this is it.
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
smile!
23. one of my favorite numbers. good omen for the year?
i'm badly missing my friends from the philippines, and it's getting harder and harder to share myself with them coz of the distance. so here goes this blog.
will be keeping this entry short, since i still have to wake up early tomorrow. just want to SMILE and spread it around. =) i feel so grateful and blessed for the gift of friendship. (cheeessy!!!)
i'm badly missing my friends from the philippines, and it's getting harder and harder to share myself with them coz of the distance. so here goes this blog.
will be keeping this entry short, since i still have to wake up early tomorrow. just want to SMILE and spread it around. =) i feel so grateful and blessed for the gift of friendship. (cheeessy!!!)