i've been neglecting my cyber life for quite a while now. sorry to those who thought i didn't care anymore.. i do. and i would like to hear from you too, you know. i hope even if i forget to update you, you'd still think that i am this friend you have, whether it be near or far. ;) i've just been way too busy.. i'll try to put some bits for each month:
january 2007
* sigh, didn't mean to start my year at work with a sick leave, but i did! but no deep regrets, because despite the aches and pains of the 7-hr (each way) drive, i enjoyed my San Francisco trip with my family. visited my dad's half siblings, golden gate bridge, twin peaks, fisherman's wharf.. even saw frank drilon and his family during the sunday mass.
december 2006
* (12/29) alnie's visit - ate dinner at pink's hotdog, then sushi mac, then coffee/tea @ the grove, then dessert (& dinner for alrey & arman) @ denny's..
* catering, catering, and more catering! we didn't even have time to cook for our noche buena. we just had steak & baked potato, which was fine.. yum!
* family complete! jindi arrived 12/21.. =)
* simbang gabi complete!!! =) =) =) so happy! but it was only during the third night that i started feeling the christmas season. it didn't last.. but it wasn't bad. i just didn't feel the holiday spirit for long.
november
* still arranging things at home
* i know there have been other things that kept me very busy during this month, but i can't seem to remember them now..
october
* gk marathon with banjo and ate ja. t-w-e-n-t-y- -s-i-x- -p-o-i-n-t- -t-w-o- -m-i-l-e-s whew! tiring but real fulfilling. makes one rethink the word 'impossible.' of course the whole family was there to support.
* house move - i still live far from work, but atleast june's school and mama's workplace became closer.
september
* started work 09/20. for the first few weeks, they made me go to work at 630am, which meant riding the bus at 430am. thankfully, i'm at a regular schedule now (830am-5pm). real busy at work. can't even formulate a few sentences to update my blog. anywyay, it's a seafood (fresh fish) import business, and i handle paperwork mostly. what's amusing is that i sort of am the QA too, because i ended up catching the mistakes of the people around me while i'm trying to verify my work. then, i guess since my boss saw how attentive to detail i am, i also ended up gathering the information we share on email to use them to make procedural documents. huh.
august
* had a part time job for two and a half weeks, packing cellphone parts (charger, back housing, bar codes). twas fun hehe.. although i had to keep myself awake by talking almost nonstop on the phone with myca2k.. which was ok, since i was just in one corner of the warehouse. maybe i just looked a bit weird sometimes, laughing all by myself or something hehe.. good thing this was also the month when i switched my prepaid phone to join my sister's family plan, which had 1000 text messages, about 700 hundred shared minutes, and free cingular-to-cingular calls..
updates good enough? hope so.. this entry is also helping me assess part of 2006. when i have more time, i think i need to look back some more, because i know last year was pretty messed up for me. i want to try and make sense of what i've done.
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
Thursday, August 31, 2006
sapere aude!
i'm still subscribed to my philosophy class egroup in college. once in a while, i browse through the readings that are being emailed to the group. as i was reading something written by Immanuel Kant in the year 1784, some of the things he said struck me...
Enlightenment is man's emergence from his self-imposed immaturity. Immaturity is the inability to use one's understanding without guidance from another. This immaturity is self-imposed when its cause lies not in lack of understanding, but in lack of resolve and courage to use it without guidance from another. Sapere Aude! [dare to know] "Have courage to use your own understanding!"--that is the motto of enlightenment.
If I have a book to serve as my understanding, a pastor to serve as my conscience, a physician to determine my diet for me, and so on, I need not exert myself at all.
... and he goes on about his time being the age of enlightenment and all. i can't really say anything about 1784, but i do know that everything he said still remains true today. that there have been too many "guides" set up for us within the last few decades, centuries even, that people tend to rely on these instead of using their own understanding. traditions keep old teachings and rituals alive, even when they seem out of place already. everything has a dummy book - parenting for dummies, accounting for dummies, etc. each little item you buy includes detailed instructions about it. it's good to share what we know to others, but we must also be aware of the danger of becoming too lazy to think for oneself. it's healthy to question our ways, is what i say. hmmm, do i sound like a rebel?? hehehe.. questioning doesn't necessarily mean contradicting. it's just a manner of learning more about things.
and i know there are rules that are imposed by society, and different people have different views on how to live life, and this causes problems. but it is so much better to discuss and debate on those differing views than to stagnate and live with no progress and growth. we just need to be wise enough to know how to settle the arguments - like agreeing to disagree (kanya kanyang diskarte na lang) and compromising. of course, it should go without saying that we are not to forget the big picture - the effect of our decisions on others and all that yada about world peace.
if in 1784, it was the age of enlightenment, it doesn't follow that we are at an enlightened age already. after all the years that passed, here's to hoping that we still continue to look around us and push for a better understanding of it all.
Enlightenment is man's emergence from his self-imposed immaturity. Immaturity is the inability to use one's understanding without guidance from another. This immaturity is self-imposed when its cause lies not in lack of understanding, but in lack of resolve and courage to use it without guidance from another. Sapere Aude! [dare to know] "Have courage to use your own understanding!"--that is the motto of enlightenment.
If I have a book to serve as my understanding, a pastor to serve as my conscience, a physician to determine my diet for me, and so on, I need not exert myself at all.
... and he goes on about his time being the age of enlightenment and all. i can't really say anything about 1784, but i do know that everything he said still remains true today. that there have been too many "guides" set up for us within the last few decades, centuries even, that people tend to rely on these instead of using their own understanding. traditions keep old teachings and rituals alive, even when they seem out of place already. everything has a dummy book - parenting for dummies, accounting for dummies, etc. each little item you buy includes detailed instructions about it. it's good to share what we know to others, but we must also be aware of the danger of becoming too lazy to think for oneself. it's healthy to question our ways, is what i say. hmmm, do i sound like a rebel?? hehehe.. questioning doesn't necessarily mean contradicting. it's just a manner of learning more about things.
and i know there are rules that are imposed by society, and different people have different views on how to live life, and this causes problems. but it is so much better to discuss and debate on those differing views than to stagnate and live with no progress and growth. we just need to be wise enough to know how to settle the arguments - like agreeing to disagree (kanya kanyang diskarte na lang) and compromising. of course, it should go without saying that we are not to forget the big picture - the effect of our decisions on others and all that yada about world peace.
if in 1784, it was the age of enlightenment, it doesn't follow that we are at an enlightened age already. after all the years that passed, here's to hoping that we still continue to look around us and push for a better understanding of it all.
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
senseless me
i admit, i don't let people get too close
sorry for all those i pushed away
it's a sickness, and i'm still struggling with it
after all these years of "learning"
i thank God for giving me kulit people who never give up on me
i hope i can also completely accept the hard facts
that not every friend or loved one is meant to stay a part of my life for always
that i cannot be whoever other people want me to be
[i can just be me, and that's it]
that time is needed to let things fall into their places
sorry for all those i pushed away
it's a sickness, and i'm still struggling with it
after all these years of "learning"
i thank God for giving me kulit people who never give up on me
i hope i can also completely accept the hard facts
that not every friend or loved one is meant to stay a part of my life for always
that i cannot be whoever other people want me to be
[i can just be me, and that's it]
that time is needed to let things fall into their places
HTTP 403 (forbidden)
my blog is forbidden??? why??? for lack of updates? hehehe...
anyway, i'm still here. will be keeping this real short coz i just wanna try and see if my blog becomes viewable after this post.
but let me just say, nakakalito ang mundo... but i'll never let the world win! i'll keep on fighting! so whatever comes my way, bring it on! i just hope i can keep the people i love from getting hurt in any way.
anyway, i'm still here. will be keeping this real short coz i just wanna try and see if my blog becomes viewable after this post.
but let me just say, nakakalito ang mundo... but i'll never let the world win! i'll keep on fighting! so whatever comes my way, bring it on! i just hope i can keep the people i love from getting hurt in any way.
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
ngarag
i'll just dive right into the stories ok,, i'm still too tired from everything that happened for the past few weeks. but i want to write about them, so here goes.
last week, i was so busy preparing for the final (dedication) night of the Holy Family Christian Life Program. i was tasked to do the dvd souvenir, and practices were also held at our place for the presentation of the new members under our group. my average sleep time was 4hours per night. i don't know why i took so much time with the dvd edit - am i that slow? or maybe it was because i also gave time for telebabad and chat hehe.. anyway, even as tired as i was, it was a very fun and fulfilling week for me.
saturday, i went to the Christ the King CLP, where they were doing Talk 5 & 6. i helped out with recording the session on dvd, assisted by hannah. most of the newly dedicated members in our group in Holy Family (tina, rian, myca) were also there to support the CLP. around 6 pm, i decided to come home to finally get some rest. the people at home said that there'd been a power outage. i didn't think it was a big deal, i was too tired to go wherever - i just wanted to lie down and sleep. but after about 5minutes of feeling the hot and humid air at home, i called up my friends to complain - i couldn't sleep! i couldn't breathe properly! parang ang arte na nga e, nakaramdam lang ng konting init, parang mamamatay na... after figuring out what i could do to get out of the heat, eyos and her boyfriend picked me up at 8:30pm to go and support the Our Lady of Lourdes CLP dedication. then we hung out at winnie's till 4am, with a wish that when we got home, it'd be cooler, presko.
sunday, i had a restless night to prepare me for my day. power was still out! we heard mass at 12pm, lugged some pillows and mats, and went to search for a place where we could relax and escape the oven that was our home. we ended up near sta. monica beach. the view was amazing! we could see the ocean below us, the sta. monica pier at our far left, with its famous ferris wheel and all the hustle and bustle of a leisurely sunday afternoon. i wasn't able to linger on enjoying the sights, coz i was in bad shape already - i wanted to sleep!!! thankfully, i was able to sleep for at least two hours. =) when we got home, wow, it was already getting ridiculous! still no power! and as if that wasn't bad enough, only our block remained that way in our area. we could see the lights from across the street while we pity ourselves in the dark! it turned out that the prolonged power outage didn't affect the whole city. but those affected might still experience this hell for forty eight hours or more!
so monday, the unemployed bunch at home (ate ja, june and i) thought of going to universal studios to take advantage of the cool zones there. i didn't get the chance to really rest, but atleast i enjoyed the tram ride, the eat-all-you-can for $20, and the cold AC at the shrek 4d show. by this time, i was already getting whiny and short tempered. but what can i do.. i just indulged myself by not getting concerned about the expenses, and drinking coke and cold cold water to keep me refreshed. i love coke during the summer! =)
sigh, tuesday still wasn't a good power day.. DWP (department of water & power) said that we MIGHT have the power back by wednesday early morning. so we just went to the mall, armed with chargers to replenish our phone batteries - i've been talking a lot on the phone during the past few days, for lack of other things to do. ate ja and i watched pirates of the carribean 2 while june stayed at Borders (bookstore) with our dad and grandma. yep, that't how hot it was - nobody could tolerate it any longer. then after the movie, we had dinner at the foodcourt. yumyum cinnabon! and surf city smoothie - the strawberry banana tasted like the one from coffee hubs (technoplaza one bldg at eastwood).
after dinner, myca, ate ja and i went to kat's place to just hang out for a bit. anything to stay out of our house hehe. when we got home at around 12mn, i still didn't sleep. i stayed on the phone for a few more hours, hoping that i'd still be awake by the time the power came on. by 4am, my phone battery went dead so i had no choice but to sleep. and wonder of all wonders, the power was back at around 5am!!! yahoo!!!!
so i slept the whole wednesday morning! =) it still wasn' t that good, maybe it's coz of the mess i did with my sleep time for more than two weeks already.. but still! yey yey yey!!! =) when i woke up in the afternoon, we started cleaning up here at home. but i couldn't resist staying online the whole time, reading my email and chatting. ;)
so there. i'm tired, but i feel good! why? haha, when you've been down, there's nowhere to go but up!! hopefully i can rest some more tonight. coz tomorrow, i'm going out for dinner and bowling. then on friday, we're leaving for a vegas weekend for an sfc activity. again, my jobhunt plans have been moved for another week. i hope that's not too bad.. it was supposed to be this week, but how could i plan on impressing prospective employers if i felt lousy? i'll just move along accordingly. come what may. =)
last week, i was so busy preparing for the final (dedication) night of the Holy Family Christian Life Program. i was tasked to do the dvd souvenir, and practices were also held at our place for the presentation of the new members under our group. my average sleep time was 4hours per night. i don't know why i took so much time with the dvd edit - am i that slow? or maybe it was because i also gave time for telebabad and chat hehe.. anyway, even as tired as i was, it was a very fun and fulfilling week for me.
saturday, i went to the Christ the King CLP, where they were doing Talk 5 & 6. i helped out with recording the session on dvd, assisted by hannah. most of the newly dedicated members in our group in Holy Family (tina, rian, myca) were also there to support the CLP. around 6 pm, i decided to come home to finally get some rest. the people at home said that there'd been a power outage. i didn't think it was a big deal, i was too tired to go wherever - i just wanted to lie down and sleep. but after about 5minutes of feeling the hot and humid air at home, i called up my friends to complain - i couldn't sleep! i couldn't breathe properly! parang ang arte na nga e, nakaramdam lang ng konting init, parang mamamatay na... after figuring out what i could do to get out of the heat, eyos and her boyfriend picked me up at 8:30pm to go and support the Our Lady of Lourdes CLP dedication. then we hung out at winnie's till 4am, with a wish that when we got home, it'd be cooler, presko.
sunday, i had a restless night to prepare me for my day. power was still out! we heard mass at 12pm, lugged some pillows and mats, and went to search for a place where we could relax and escape the oven that was our home. we ended up near sta. monica beach. the view was amazing! we could see the ocean below us, the sta. monica pier at our far left, with its famous ferris wheel and all the hustle and bustle of a leisurely sunday afternoon. i wasn't able to linger on enjoying the sights, coz i was in bad shape already - i wanted to sleep!!! thankfully, i was able to sleep for at least two hours. =) when we got home, wow, it was already getting ridiculous! still no power! and as if that wasn't bad enough, only our block remained that way in our area. we could see the lights from across the street while we pity ourselves in the dark! it turned out that the prolonged power outage didn't affect the whole city. but those affected might still experience this hell for forty eight hours or more!
so monday, the unemployed bunch at home (ate ja, june and i) thought of going to universal studios to take advantage of the cool zones there. i didn't get the chance to really rest, but atleast i enjoyed the tram ride, the eat-all-you-can for $20, and the cold AC at the shrek 4d show. by this time, i was already getting whiny and short tempered. but what can i do.. i just indulged myself by not getting concerned about the expenses, and drinking coke and cold cold water to keep me refreshed. i love coke during the summer! =)
sigh, tuesday still wasn't a good power day.. DWP (department of water & power) said that we MIGHT have the power back by wednesday early morning. so we just went to the mall, armed with chargers to replenish our phone batteries - i've been talking a lot on the phone during the past few days, for lack of other things to do. ate ja and i watched pirates of the carribean 2 while june stayed at Borders (bookstore) with our dad and grandma. yep, that't how hot it was - nobody could tolerate it any longer. then after the movie, we had dinner at the foodcourt. yumyum cinnabon! and surf city smoothie - the strawberry banana tasted like the one from coffee hubs (technoplaza one bldg at eastwood).
after dinner, myca, ate ja and i went to kat's place to just hang out for a bit. anything to stay out of our house hehe. when we got home at around 12mn, i still didn't sleep. i stayed on the phone for a few more hours, hoping that i'd still be awake by the time the power came on. by 4am, my phone battery went dead so i had no choice but to sleep. and wonder of all wonders, the power was back at around 5am!!! yahoo!!!!
so i slept the whole wednesday morning! =) it still wasn' t that good, maybe it's coz of the mess i did with my sleep time for more than two weeks already.. but still! yey yey yey!!! =) when i woke up in the afternoon, we started cleaning up here at home. but i couldn't resist staying online the whole time, reading my email and chatting. ;)
so there. i'm tired, but i feel good! why? haha, when you've been down, there's nowhere to go but up!! hopefully i can rest some more tonight. coz tomorrow, i'm going out for dinner and bowling. then on friday, we're leaving for a vegas weekend for an sfc activity. again, my jobhunt plans have been moved for another week. i hope that's not too bad.. it was supposed to be this week, but how could i plan on impressing prospective employers if i felt lousy? i'll just move along accordingly. come what may. =)