tired.
the early june 'everything-came-with-it' sickness ruined my momentum. i need something to pick me up. don't know what. too many distracting thoughts and happenings. some of them good, but tiring all the same.
i won't list down these 'happenings' right now. no energy. i didn't even get to see transformers 2 as soon as it came out. i don't even feel too excited for harry potter 6 coz i can't watch it the way i want to.
i just want to retreat back into my cave now.
Monday, July 13, 2009
Friday, April 10, 2009
unconditional
Last year, I was asked to write a sharing for today's reading for the In His Steps Journal:
APRIL 10, FRIDAY [JOHN 18:1 - 19:42]
For me, it's not hard to feel emotional when I read the Bible. In reflecting on Jesus' story of His passion and death, I feel the overwhelming power of His unconditional love for us. It never seizes to amaze me how He could suffer all that He'd been through for us. To add insult to injury, He also had to be betrayed and denied by His friends during His low moments. That must have been so hard for Him.
Just like in Jesus' case, I have experienced, and still experience being hurt by the people I love - my friends as well as my family. May it be due to pettiness, insensitivities, or clashing mood swings, it feels really bad when these 'dramas' happen. It makes me wonder why I have to feel so much pain from them.
But I learned, and am constantly being reminded, that these hurtful things are there so that I can have the opportunity to feel what Jesus felt - to get to the point where I can express my unconditional love for my friends and family.
I do hope I can keep on trying to love like Jesus. When faced with the different 'dramas' in my life, all I really want to do is turn to Him and find the strength to follow His great example of unconditional love.
***
it's hard to accept harsh realities. no matter. life (and love) goes on. i thank God for that.
APRIL 10, FRIDAY [JOHN 18:1 - 19:42]
For me, it's not hard to feel emotional when I read the Bible. In reflecting on Jesus' story of His passion and death, I feel the overwhelming power of His unconditional love for us. It never seizes to amaze me how He could suffer all that He'd been through for us. To add insult to injury, He also had to be betrayed and denied by His friends during His low moments. That must have been so hard for Him.
Just like in Jesus' case, I have experienced, and still experience being hurt by the people I love - my friends as well as my family. May it be due to pettiness, insensitivities, or clashing mood swings, it feels really bad when these 'dramas' happen. It makes me wonder why I have to feel so much pain from them.
But I learned, and am constantly being reminded, that these hurtful things are there so that I can have the opportunity to feel what Jesus felt - to get to the point where I can express my unconditional love for my friends and family.
I do hope I can keep on trying to love like Jesus. When faced with the different 'dramas' in my life, all I really want to do is turn to Him and find the strength to follow His great example of unconditional love.
***
it's hard to accept harsh realities. no matter. life (and love) goes on. i thank God for that.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
..seek the unknown, then can we go home?
i like traveling. i like looking out the window and just staring into the spaces around me. even if i get motion sickness easily. hehe..
but if you ask me for just one place on where i would go if i could go anywhere in the world, i actually don't have an answer. i'd like to go everywhere! hehehe..
if you give me a bunch to choose from, i may give you a ranking of those in my priority/wish list. and this ranking will depend on my current disposition in life.
i'm not very particular with the places i want to visit. as long as i'm with loved ones (or even acquaintances/strangers whose interests are similar with mine), i'm set to have a good time. ;)
right now, IF & WHEN given the opportunity, i'm thinking of visiting the following places:
- more of the philippines
- more of the US
- singapore - friends - if they're still there..
- australia - koala! hehe..
- several places in europe (rome, italy, spain, etc)
- china - great wall
- japan - canon! =p
- ireland - ps i love you movie scenery; st patrick! haha..
- israel - bethlehem, golgotha
i won't be devastated if i don't get to see these places. i'm alright with simple living and all. but i don't want to disregard them as foolish dreams. no sense in living without a little bit of dreaming (the impossible dreams)... ;)
"..seek the unknown, then can we go home?"
- titanic tip & daring dash, adventurers slash explorers =D
but if you ask me for just one place on where i would go if i could go anywhere in the world, i actually don't have an answer. i'd like to go everywhere! hehehe..
if you give me a bunch to choose from, i may give you a ranking of those in my priority/wish list. and this ranking will depend on my current disposition in life.
i'm not very particular with the places i want to visit. as long as i'm with loved ones (or even acquaintances/strangers whose interests are similar with mine), i'm set to have a good time. ;)
right now, IF & WHEN given the opportunity, i'm thinking of visiting the following places:
- more of the philippines
- more of the US
- singapore - friends - if they're still there..
- australia - koala! hehe..
- several places in europe (rome, italy, spain, etc)
- china - great wall
- japan - canon! =p
- ireland - ps i love you movie scenery; st patrick! haha..
- israel - bethlehem, golgotha
i won't be devastated if i don't get to see these places. i'm alright with simple living and all. but i don't want to disregard them as foolish dreams. no sense in living without a little bit of dreaming (the impossible dreams)... ;)
"..seek the unknown, then can we go home?"
- titanic tip & daring dash, adventurers slash explorers =D
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
time for everything
i just told khris yesterday that we can't be expected to keep all the friends we've made throughout our lives. ouch diba. well, i've both become a forgotten friend and a forgetting friend at the same time. that's life.
i'm not really in 'drama' mode right now, but i just stumbled on a quote that made me realize how far i've come from my old undecisive self:
"choosing one path means abandoning others - if you try to follow every possible path you will end up following none."
- brida of paulo coelho -
now that i'm tackling things here and there, i don't care so much anymore about thinking long and hard before acting on the trivial stuff. i'm letting things unfold, just being me.
i'm not really in 'drama' mode right now, but i just stumbled on a quote that made me realize how far i've come from my old undecisive self:
"choosing one path means abandoning others - if you try to follow every possible path you will end up following none."
- brida of paulo coelho -
now that i'm tackling things here and there, i don't care so much anymore about thinking long and hard before acting on the trivial stuff. i'm letting things unfold, just being me.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
one at a time
i decided to post whatever nonsense i can think of quickly, just so i can get rid of the 'icky love stuff' on top of my page hehe.. i actually posted parts of this entry last week, but it got posted BELOW the love stuff! haha... anyway...
i hope i don't run out of energy - or whatever is driving me to move about these days.. i'm trying to keep up with everything - work tasks, home stuff, changes, moods, weather, etc. i'm focusing on the benefits of being challenged like this, instead of getting disheartened and becoming non-productive.
i hope i don't run out of money too! ;) i wanna save up.
i hope i don't run out of energy - or whatever is driving me to move about these days.. i'm trying to keep up with everything - work tasks, home stuff, changes, moods, weather, etc. i'm focusing on the benefits of being challenged like this, instead of getting disheartened and becoming non-productive.
i hope i don't run out of money too! ;) i wanna save up.