been memorizing some lyrics again:
in the waiting line [zero seven]
..Wasting my time.....In the waiting line.....Everyone's taking everything they can..
cold [crossfade]
..I'm always wrapped up in.....Things I cannnot win.....I'm sorry for the way I am.....I never meant to be so cold to you..
rest in pieces [saliva]
..You got much closer than I thought you did..
sometimes [gabrielle]
..We have our highs and lows.....Just like everybody else.....Doesn’t mean that we walk away.....It’s the little things that keep me holding on..
here without you [three doors down]
..It gets hard but it won't take away my love..
Thursday, April 28, 2005
Saturday, April 23, 2005
those were the days
yeah sorry, i promised myself not to dwell on the past, but a friend just sent me some pictures from last year so i indulged in reliving some great moments of my past few years. i even looked at pictures i already have just to enjoy some more..
ganun pala feeling ng sinu-surprise.. my citech friends prepared a despedida party for me last august 2004, and it was such an amazing feeling, having them all with me that time. even when i already knew there was something going on (only after i saw familiar cars parked on our street), i was still shocked to see my qa family gathered in our apartment. i remember trembling all over during that night. i could barely absorb everything that happened, but thanks to the pictures, i now have a tangible memento of that event. =)
ganun pala feeling ng sinu-surprise.. my citech friends prepared a despedida party for me last august 2004, and it was such an amazing feeling, having them all with me that time. even when i already knew there was something going on (only after i saw familiar cars parked on our street), i was still shocked to see my qa family gathered in our apartment. i remember trembling all over during that night. i could barely absorb everything that happened, but thanks to the pictures, i now have a tangible memento of that event. =)
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
i like.
network administrator: a title i didn't imagine i would have. yes, i'm the designated computer person at home, and i'm actually interested in this. but i didn't expect to be good at it (not good:GOOD, but still) since i have a history of not pursuing my interests:
* playing the piano - all my sisters had lessons when we were kids. using MY piano. i don't know exactly why i didn't do the lessons. i learned only by guessing the notes and depending on the basic lessons they taught in high school.
* playing the guitar - i got a guitar as a birthday gift in high school, but didn't even get to use it. i resorted to enjoying by listening others play.
* singing in the choir - again, 2 of my sisters joined the church choir and i didn't. thanks to AtSCA, i was given the chance to involve myself in this.
* my crush(es) - hahaha. i'm not fond of regrets, but it just makes me frustrated sometimes when i think of all the moments where i could've enjoyed being with my crush, instead of worrying about him noticing my infatuation.
* playing the piano - all my sisters had lessons when we were kids. using MY piano. i don't know exactly why i didn't do the lessons. i learned only by guessing the notes and depending on the basic lessons they taught in high school.
* playing the guitar - i got a guitar as a birthday gift in high school, but didn't even get to use it. i resorted to enjoying by listening others play.
* singing in the choir - again, 2 of my sisters joined the church choir and i didn't. thanks to AtSCA, i was given the chance to involve myself in this.
* my crush(es) - hahaha. i'm not fond of regrets, but it just makes me frustrated sometimes when i think of all the moments where i could've enjoyed being with my crush, instead of worrying about him noticing my infatuation.
Saturday, April 09, 2005
what's done is done
[green day]
do you have the time
to listen to me whine
about nothing and everything
all at once?
The Pope is dead.
Byggs also died last sunday. waah! - didn't even get to figure out what really caused his sickness.
i got sick last monday. first sick leave in my current job.
these are only some of the reasons why i wasn't too eager to post in my blog.
but well, what's done is done.
.....
funny how we connect too much to material things.
*a few weeks back, i restored my laptop to its original settings. i backed up all my college data, but i still felt something stir in me while erasing my files and running the restoration disk.
*i remember forcing myself not to think about my nokia 3210 cellphone when it was snatched during college senior year. i just bought a new casing that i liked very much (dark dark green), and i didn't even get to appreciate it for more than a few days!
*and then today, my brother lent me his backpack. what does this have to do with what i'm saying? this bag is just like the one my crush had. so i actually smiled and felt so good to see my brother's bag, coz it reminded me of this one time when i hugged my crush's bag. silly me. hehe.
so ok, it's actually the memories and the representation of these things that i am really attached to. i guess it's just more convenient to "feel" for a thing (that you can control and keep with you whenever you'd like it to be there) instead of a person. but still, as morrie says, i would rather put my energies into people.
do you have the time
to listen to me whine
about nothing and everything
all at once?
The Pope is dead.
Byggs also died last sunday. waah! - didn't even get to figure out what really caused his sickness.
i got sick last monday. first sick leave in my current job.
these are only some of the reasons why i wasn't too eager to post in my blog.
but well, what's done is done.
.....
funny how we connect too much to material things.
*a few weeks back, i restored my laptop to its original settings. i backed up all my college data, but i still felt something stir in me while erasing my files and running the restoration disk.
*i remember forcing myself not to think about my nokia 3210 cellphone when it was snatched during college senior year. i just bought a new casing that i liked very much (dark dark green), and i didn't even get to appreciate it for more than a few days!
*and then today, my brother lent me his backpack. what does this have to do with what i'm saying? this bag is just like the one my crush had. so i actually smiled and felt so good to see my brother's bag, coz it reminded me of this one time when i hugged my crush's bag. silly me. hehe.
so ok, it's actually the memories and the representation of these things that i am really attached to. i guess it's just more convenient to "feel" for a thing (that you can control and keep with you whenever you'd like it to be there) instead of a person. but still, as morrie says, i would rather put my energies into people.
Sunday, March 27, 2005
care to jump in the mix?
our garage had a great week! first off, we got a pool table today! wow, so heavy! another gift from craigslist. =) it needs some work to be done, since it sat in the rain a few times. but according to friends, it could be sold at least $1000 just as it is right now. good thing we had some help from some of the guys we met in the Singles for Christ sessions. took us more than 2hours to move it.
how about some drums? my sister's boss gave them to her, since her boss's son doesn't use them anymore. we're still missing a couch, and a tv/entertainment system, but i'm already looking forward to having friends over to our place when we get to arrange our garage. =)
jumping on to another bit, i watched the movie "In America" this afternoon. it's a story of a family migrating to the United States, constantly struggling to survive, but also spending happy moments with one another. the father had some problems connecting with his emotions, so his wife tells him to just make-believe he is happy. she actually said (or maybe someone else in the movie) that life IS make-believe => if you believe in it, it will happen, or is already happening. as i read some comments written about the movie, i stumbled upon a post that said our current situation or disposition affects the way we perceive the various things in our lives. and so i wonder why i like this movie so much? hehe.
to write down something else i also noticed: i haven't been able to remember my dreams these past few weeks. usually a dream or two would linger in my mind, making me wonder how it connects to my reality. but now, even if i wake up fine (meaning i am less sleepy and/or grumpy than usual when i get out of bed), i simply forget.
with all these mixed up stories, it just goes to show that my brain is slowly getting its old rhythm back. all the thoughts waiting (for so long) to buzz into life are flowing again. huh, typical. just when i said i haven't been thinking much these past months, here comes this rush.
how about some drums? my sister's boss gave them to her, since her boss's son doesn't use them anymore. we're still missing a couch, and a tv/entertainment system, but i'm already looking forward to having friends over to our place when we get to arrange our garage. =)
jumping on to another bit, i watched the movie "In America" this afternoon. it's a story of a family migrating to the United States, constantly struggling to survive, but also spending happy moments with one another. the father had some problems connecting with his emotions, so his wife tells him to just make-believe he is happy. she actually said (or maybe someone else in the movie) that life IS make-believe => if you believe in it, it will happen, or is already happening. as i read some comments written about the movie, i stumbled upon a post that said our current situation or disposition affects the way we perceive the various things in our lives. and so i wonder why i like this movie so much? hehe.
to write down something else i also noticed: i haven't been able to remember my dreams these past few weeks. usually a dream or two would linger in my mind, making me wonder how it connects to my reality. but now, even if i wake up fine (meaning i am less sleepy and/or grumpy than usual when i get out of bed), i simply forget.
with all these mixed up stories, it just goes to show that my brain is slowly getting its old rhythm back. all the thoughts waiting (for so long) to buzz into life are flowing again. huh, typical. just when i said i haven't been thinking much these past months, here comes this rush.