i am sorely tempted to daydream about having a job that would send me somewhere far once in a while. each time, for 3 months or more. far can mean anywhere from 40 to 4000 miles away from my current home. actually, i think i prefer the 4000 miles (or maybe 2800, so it would land me somewhere on the other end of this country, like new york). just to get a different perspective. learn new things. about the places, but more importantly, about me. i don't think i'd get as lonely as i did back in 2002-2003, since there are now so many ways of getting in touch with my loved ones.
i think i've been in the same place for too long (8 years). and i'm not used to it. it's only half of my pampanga time, but i don't even remember my first several years there, so the difference shouldn't amount to much.
i'll probably end up just traveling to wherever for a weekend getaway. that solo flight from last month felt great. if given the opportunity, this year, i'd like to go to 3 places i've never been. no need to be far off destinations. but they do need to present a different experience for me. gotta save though. especially since i plan to do at least one solo trip again.
Wednesday, January 09, 2013
Thursday, December 27, 2012
game ka na ba?
again, this has been in my scattered notes for a while now. i think i typed it in my blackberry, one (muni muni) night. =p i'm just clearing out some stuff, so here goes this bit:
I don't think I've ever been a good gambler. Most of the time, I'm cautious, so no guts = no glory. I just get content with taking advantage of whatever easy opportunities that come my way. But actually, sometimes, I do an 'all in' strike, just because I feel like it. And one can never tell beforehand whether or not I get the big bucks. Coz there's no strategy in my game. I just play, and I keep on it till I exhaust myself.
Just some games I played:
Super mario brothers (of course)
Donkey kong
Snake
Brickbreaker
Sudoku
Gauntlet
Duke nukem
Pipe something
Bomber man
Twin bee
Race something (the one where superman shows up when you reach a certain point without crashing into anything)
Contra
Alchemist (yahoo game)
so. am i ready to play some more? hmm.
I don't think I've ever been a good gambler. Most of the time, I'm cautious, so no guts = no glory. I just get content with taking advantage of whatever easy opportunities that come my way. But actually, sometimes, I do an 'all in' strike, just because I feel like it. And one can never tell beforehand whether or not I get the big bucks. Coz there's no strategy in my game. I just play, and I keep on it till I exhaust myself.
Just some games I played:
Super mario brothers (of course)
Donkey kong
Snake
Brickbreaker
Sudoku
Gauntlet
Duke nukem
Pipe something
Bomber man
Twin bee
Race something (the one where superman shows up when you reach a certain point without crashing into anything)
Contra
Alchemist (yahoo game)
so. am i ready to play some more? hmm.
Thursday, September 20, 2012
me and others
"take away all of that, what do YOU want?"
that was casey's question to me, almost seven years ago. i still don't know how to answer it.
why do i tend to consider everything and everyone around me before deciding on what I supposedly want? hmm.
time and again, i've also been told that i am actually better off if i care less about others. does it mean that i go too far with my being a 'woman for others?' do i forget to include my preferences in MY life?
hmm. enough for now. not really in a thinking mood. this just spilled over from the recent bits that just popped up from wherever. as a friend advised last night, i'm letting go and letting God figure it out for me.
that was casey's question to me, almost seven years ago. i still don't know how to answer it.
why do i tend to consider everything and everyone around me before deciding on what I supposedly want? hmm.
time and again, i've also been told that i am actually better off if i care less about others. does it mean that i go too far with my being a 'woman for others?' do i forget to include my preferences in MY life?
hmm. enough for now. not really in a thinking mood. this just spilled over from the recent bits that just popped up from wherever. as a friend advised last night, i'm letting go and letting God figure it out for me.
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
minsang muni muni
I don't want to be that fleeting moment of your time. I like it when we take it slow, just enjoying what is. No pressure, no drama, no setting up of THE perfect activity that we're supposed to have. No worries. Thank you, life. Coz you're letting me appreciate the best of you. =)
Let's break it down a bit:
* fleeting moments - i say no thanks to superficial hello's, and never mind the devouring of all the available information being pushed so blatantly on us
* what is - i am limited, and you are limited <= that's okay => instead of stressing out on the unattained fancies and desires, i am giving my attention to the quality goods => those that serve me, to become a joyful child of God; i'd rather savor the gifts of the present, than to always ask more and more from each experience
As one of my favorite songs would remind me:
There is no future. There is no past.
There's only this. No day but today.
My only joy is just to be.
Let's break it down a bit:
* fleeting moments - i say no thanks to superficial hello's, and never mind the devouring of all the available information being pushed so blatantly on us
* what is - i am limited, and you are limited <= that's okay => instead of stressing out on the unattained fancies and desires, i am giving my attention to the quality goods => those that serve me, to become a joyful child of God; i'd rather savor the gifts of the present, than to always ask more and more from each experience
As one of my favorite songs would remind me:
There is no future. There is no past.
There's only this. No day but today.
My only joy is just to be.
Wednesday, August 01, 2012
i don't know
i guess i just want to post some reminders here, on how life went on after i faced a few unknowns.
* 2nd year high school, 1st day: my name was not in the class listing, so i had to go to the principal's office and be assigned a section, based on my grades. i lied - gave an average grade - so they put me in an average section. i only knew one person - the rest were strangers. but that year turned out to be one of the best years of my life. f.r.i.e.n.d.s. and more.
* college: enrolled in a school far away from home, where i didn't know anybody - no high school mates, no relatives. same with my living situation - everything was new to me - the environment, roommates, commute. i wasn't scared. in fact, i liked the feeling of easing into this part of my life. i loved learning, exploring, and just taking it all in.
i have other stories that i can share, but i'll end the list here for now, since i'm still always sick, and shouldn't spend too much time with whatever. i also have a sink full of dishes waiting for me downstairs.
but the point of this post is to keep me from getting frustrated with the current question marks in my life. i'm still okay. not stressed, nor depressed. i've actually been good. even with two months of sickness. even if work might get to be a bit busier than i'd like it to be. i'm actually hopeful that i will have my share of great days in the near future.
* 2nd year high school, 1st day: my name was not in the class listing, so i had to go to the principal's office and be assigned a section, based on my grades. i lied - gave an average grade - so they put me in an average section. i only knew one person - the rest were strangers. but that year turned out to be one of the best years of my life. f.r.i.e.n.d.s. and more.
* college: enrolled in a school far away from home, where i didn't know anybody - no high school mates, no relatives. same with my living situation - everything was new to me - the environment, roommates, commute. i wasn't scared. in fact, i liked the feeling of easing into this part of my life. i loved learning, exploring, and just taking it all in.
i have other stories that i can share, but i'll end the list here for now, since i'm still always sick, and shouldn't spend too much time with whatever. i also have a sink full of dishes waiting for me downstairs.
but the point of this post is to keep me from getting frustrated with the current question marks in my life. i'm still okay. not stressed, nor depressed. i've actually been good. even with two months of sickness. even if work might get to be a bit busier than i'd like it to be. i'm actually hopeful that i will have my share of great days in the near future.