it's a bit frustrating to have to keep myself from seeking distractions (from my restlessness). in the recent past, i usually turn to TV, games, browsing, mindless chats. to pass the time. till i get motivated again to do more relevant stuff. these 'wala lang' activities are not really bad for me, especially since i don't think i go overboard with the time i allot for them. i still do other stuff, and i feel like i'm pretty okay with my balancing act. but for lent, i'm trying to be more empty. to see if there are better ways of filling the acidic gaps within me. i've been resting a lot. but sometimes, i also get tired of resting, if you know what i mean. i wanna be productive.
there are also 'several things' that i don't want to dwell on about my current (physical, emotional, mental) state. i guess this adds up to my frustration. when i'm not busy, these 'things' try to creep into my head and mess me up. i don't want stuff to blow up in my face, so i have to keep myself aware of the facts, and the other considerations related to these 'things.' but i don't want to over think as well, so i'm keeping my thoughts about these 'things' at a relatively safe distance.
woosah! =)
