my music

been memorizing some lyrics again:

in the waiting line [zero seven]
..Wasting my time.....In the waiting line.....Everyone's taking everything they can..

cold [crossfade]
..I'm always wrapped up in.....Things I cannnot win.....I'm sorry for the way I am.....I never meant to be so cold to you..

rest in pieces [saliva]
..You got much closer than I thought you did..

sometimes [gabrielle]
..We have our highs and lows.....Just like everybody else.....Doesn’t mean that we walk away.....It’s the little things that keep me holding on..

here without you [three doors down]
..It gets hard but it won't take away my love..

those were the days

yeah sorry, i promised myself not to dwell on the past, but a friend just sent me some pictures from last year so i indulged in reliving some great moments of my past few years. i even looked at pictures i already have just to enjoy some more..

ganun pala feeling ng sinu-surprise.. my citech friends prepared a despedida party for me last august 2004, and it was such an amazing feeling, having them all with me that time. even when i already knew there was something going on (only after i saw familiar cars parked on our street), i was still shocked to see my qa family gathered in our apartment. i remember trembling all over during that night. i could barely absorb everything that happened, but thanks to the pictures, i now have a tangible memento of that event. =)

i like.

network administrator: a title i didn't imagine i would have. yes, i'm the designated computer person at home, and i'm actually interested in this. but i didn't expect to be good at it (not good:GOOD, but still) since i have a history of not pursuing my interests:

* playing the piano - all my sisters had lessons when we were kids. using MY piano. i don't know exactly why i didn't do the lessons. i learned only by guessing the notes and depending on the basic lessons they taught in high school.

* playing the guitar - i got a guitar as a birthday gift in high school, but didn't even get to use it. i resorted to enjoying by listening others play.

* singing in the choir - again, 2 of my sisters joined the church choir and i didn't. thanks to AtSCA, i was given the chance to involve myself in this.

* my crush(es) - hahaha. i'm not fond of regrets, but it just makes me frustrated sometimes when i think of all the moments where i could've enjoyed being with my crush, instead of worrying about him noticing my infatuation.

what's done is done

[green day]
do you have the time
to listen to me whine
about nothing and everything
all at once?

The Pope is dead.
Byggs also died last sunday. waah! - didn't even get to figure out what really caused his sickness.
i got sick last monday. first sick leave in my current job.
these are only some of the reasons why i wasn't too eager to post in my blog.
but well, what's done is done.

.....
funny how we connect too much to material things.
*a few weeks back, i restored my laptop to its original settings. i backed up all my college data, but i still felt something stir in me while erasing my files and running the restoration disk.
*i remember forcing myself not to think about my nokia 3210 cellphone when it was snatched during college senior year. i just bought a new casing that i liked very much (dark dark green), and i didn't even get to appreciate it for more than a few days!
*and then today, my brother lent me his backpack. what does this have to do with what i'm saying? this bag is just like the one my crush had. so i actually smiled and felt so good to see my brother's bag, coz it reminded me of this one time when i hugged my crush's bag. silly me. hehe.

so ok, it's actually the memories and the representation of these things that i am really attached to. i guess it's just more convenient to "feel" for a thing (that you can control and keep with you whenever you'd like it to be there) instead of a person. but still, as morrie says, i would rather put my energies into people.