it's disconcerting to switch.
from caring too much, to not caring at all.
from being attentive, to not paying attention to anything at all.
from giving my everything, to giving nothing at all.
but the switch happened. i'm not mulling over it. i'm just stating that it happened. maybe i should think more about this, but nah. not now. i do want to clarify (for myself in the future): this refers to my life in general. a lot of aspects were affected by the switch. maybe i'll address them one by one someday.
