highs and lows

i haven't been writing much coz as i said before, i want to try some things that i don't usually give time for. so what happened? nothing concrete yet, but at least i'm not stuck in a rut. i'd like to always dare myself to get out of my comfort zone. i might be a slowpoke, but at least i'm moving. can't list out the results of my effort yet, and i feel i'm quite on the verge of doubting myself again, but all will be good.

.....

oh yeah, the weekend outing is simply great. =) didn't get to swim, but had fun with dodge ball watching, hotdog&marshmallow bonfire cooking, the stories, drinks, and whatever kind of bonding activity we did - convoy bloopers, listening to those who had too much to drink, knocking on the wrong room, and of course, picture taking!!! haha.. looking forward to summer, so we can go to the beach again..

when we got home, i felt a little sadness due to the fact that even if i enjoyed the weekend so much, i feel like nothing changed. it's just a drag to feel a little let down by my own actions. I know this is vague, but let's just put it this way for now: I know i'm not perfect, but it just bums me out – not being able to do anything for something I really want.

.....

on to another cheerful topic: i couldn't stop laughing my heart out while watching the citech video my grandma brought from the philippines!!! =) i've been waiting for this for weeks, and it definitely made me look crazy, watching, laughing and answering back at the messages addressed to me. to add to my citech hype, i drank C2, wore the tie dyed pj's and palawan shirt pasalubong, and even played the usual songs that we played in the office before. =)

sloth

here i am, too lazy to update my blog properly, so i'll just provide a few lines for each thought.

Hook: 6 week old kitten who's so kulit and hyper. just like byggs (may he rest in peace), he usually wakes us up in the morning. come to think of it, he's constantly waking us with all the jumping and pouncing he does at night!

slept at 7pm last night, woke up 545am. there seems to be some kind of sleep spell that's affecting me and a few of my friends these days. huh.

bought a pair of (much needed) pants last weekend. 'twas the first time i felt that i miss shopping. too bad i don't have the budget for it yet.

my ears are ringing. i guess hearing too much shouting (from my boss) within the past four months will gradually take its toll on a person. can't do much about it, it's part of his personality.

rode the bus again (and will be doing it 3 nights a week). kinda feels like my manila-pampanga bus rides, but so much better - no bad smell of any kind, just a 1-hour trip, and not too much traffic. my brother got a part time job that's from 6-11pm, so we can't carpool all the time anymore.

planning to go to the beach this weekend with SFC friends, and hopefully meet up with a college friend also. can't even feel too excited about it yet coz of whatever ill feelings i have right now (work, sleep, and something i can't quite describe yet. apathy again? i hope not).

been too long since i wrote, the few tidbits i've been meaning to share became a lot more than i anticipated.

* yawn *

whoa!! just saw a pic from 2nd year high school! after 10 years, the classroom still looks so familiar, as if i'd been there yesterday..

ok, stopping here now. gotta sleep again. hehe..

baby steps

my sister and i went walking around our neighborhood last saturday. it's so nice to just look at the trees, flowers, birds, squirrels, dogs, and just about everything around us. i was actually trying to clear my head at the time, but i didn't exactly get the effect i was hoping for. maybe because i don't even know what i wanted to happen afterwards. but that's ok. good thing the weather is now becoming more bearable for me, coz i'd like to have an exercise routine again. if it was badminton and shakey's dinner last year, it's now going to be jogging and pancakes breakfast. ;)

i just want to try a bunch of new things. little things. tiny steps for now. to experience bits and pieces of the unknown. to let go of my firm grasp of the past.

book+coffee+cinnamon roll =) =) =)

woohoo!!!

On May 6, 2005, you ordered:

2 copies of "Harry Potter And The Half-blood Prince, Harry Potter Series #6 "by Rowling, J. K. / Grandpre, Mary
Price: $17.99
Publication date: Jul 16, 2005

=) =) =)

the book will be available by midnight, so we'll be going to the bookstore as soon as we get off from work. would want to get started asap! hehe. i'm not actually a harry potter fanatic. i just love reading books, and harry potter's one of the characters who has been with me for some time now. i'm quite loyal eh... ;)