i haven't been writing much coz as i said before, i want to try some things that i don't usually give time for. so what happened? nothing concrete yet, but at least i'm not stuck in a rut. i'd like to always dare myself to get out of my comfort zone. i might be a slowpoke, but at least i'm moving. can't list out the results of my effort yet, and i feel i'm quite on the verge of doubting myself again, but all will be good.
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oh yeah, the weekend outing is simply great. =) didn't get to swim, but had fun with dodge ball watching, hotdog&marshmallow bonfire cooking, the stories, drinks, and whatever kind of bonding activity we did - convoy bloopers, listening to those who had too much to drink, knocking on the wrong room, and of course, picture taking!!! haha.. looking forward to summer, so we can go to the beach again..
when we got home, i felt a little sadness due to the fact that even if i enjoyed the weekend so much, i feel like nothing changed. it's just a drag to feel a little let down by my own actions. I know this is vague, but let's just put it this way for now: I know i'm not perfect, but it just bums me out – not being able to do anything for something I really want.
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on to another cheerful topic: i couldn't stop laughing my heart out while watching the citech video my grandma brought from the philippines!!! =) i've been waiting for this for weeks, and it definitely made me look crazy, watching, laughing and answering back at the messages addressed to me. to add to my citech hype, i drank C2, wore the tie dyed pj's and palawan shirt pasalubong, and even played the usual songs that we played in the office before. =)
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i feel that too, sometimes. i do everything i can to cheer myself up, then i realize that sadness still looms over me. i am a lonely soul, walking wounded, trying to heal, quite getting there but not really.
i envy people who can shrug off everything that life throws at them. it's like they're invinsible. in many ways i am like that. i do not let many tings trouble me, except for this heart ache that does not seem to want to heal no matter what i do. it's frustrating.
they all say time heals all wounds. all i can do is wait for that time. there really isn't anything else to do anyway.
"...but it just bums me out – not being able to do anything for something I really want."
--> maybe you're not really sure yet what you really want...or need. :) (like we all do)
--> "nothing is more amazing...it will decide everything..." (arrupe)
this is from quay's blog. it's beautifully said:
"Don't look back far too much and so frequently that you forget to see the gift of the moment."
Quack's Quotable Quote =)
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