scrambled

* today marks my third year in the US. so what? hehe..

* i was watching felicity a long time ago, about best friends. and this note had been in my drafts for that long time - commenting on how the series was showing that felicity and julie met when they were lonely and needed best friends. that they wouldn't have been friends if not for their corresponding emotional states. but whatever. who cares when and how they met? anyway, best friendship is only as valuable as what you put in on the friendship. what matters is that they met, they spent time together, shared their lives with each other, and chose to continue on with the friendship even through the times that they did not understand one another.

* it's been a source of entertainment and amazement for me that the world seems such a small place after all. connections and communications seem to spring about around my circle. but recently, i've just been overwhelmed with all the news i've been getting - that friends and acquaintances seem to have been scattered all over the world. wow. i guess the world is not that small after all. and it's not that simple anymore either.

* i've done my share of traveling also. it's fun. ;)

l-a-z-i-n-e-s-s

i explored igoogle last week while i was trying to organize my online files. guess what i realized? i'm not (yet) a total apathetic loser after all! haha.. i stumbled upon this article about the lure of laziness -

http://www.psychologytoday.com/rss/index.php?term=pto-20070625-000004&page=1

- and it's a pleasure to feel the enjoyment of reading once again. =)

here are some bits from my read:
Laziness by definition is not uncomfortable—it is simply an unwillingness to expend energy. But laziness in an environment where we could be highly productive is a recipe for discomfort.

..we evolved with a focus on immediate returns..

Relaxation differs from laziness in that it is a reward for a completed task. Let yourself relax after a period of sustained effort..

all my life, i've been working overtime (if not by body, then by mind) through the hustle and bustle of my years. to fit in. to make others happy. to fulfill the expectations of others (including myself). to learn. to find myself. to live. but for the past year or so, i think i've been unwilling to 'expend energy,' except for the non-negotiable 'necessaries' and the things that i really want to include in my life. recently, i'm feeling bad for all the things i was/am not able to do and share with the people i love. but can i really force myself to always empty myself out, even for the things that are not directly related to what i want in my life? yeah, i still understand the meaning of 'pakikisama,' having duties to my respective communities, and the exploration of things outside 'my zone.' but up to what extent? and it doesn't seem right if i just do them for the sake of not being called boring, killjoy and lazy..

lyrical bit

ok, a brief expanation on why I haven't been blogging:
I got too crazy with work. 'nuff said? =)

now on to my blog for today...
i brought some cd's to my new work and i just want to write down some of the things i'm hearing. it's just one of those habits i have.

jennifer love hewitt (from her first album?)

don't push the river let it flow

i'm weak at the thought of letting go

close your eyes and ease your mind

fighting is the golden rule

between right and wrong, love is the only thing that's real

it's good to know that i'm alive

so, what's up what's up?? =)