l-a-z-i-n-e-s-s

i explored igoogle last week while i was trying to organize my online files. guess what i realized? i'm not (yet) a total apathetic loser after all! haha.. i stumbled upon this article about the lure of laziness -

http://www.psychologytoday.com/rss/index.php?term=pto-20070625-000004&page=1

- and it's a pleasure to feel the enjoyment of reading once again. =)

here are some bits from my read:
Laziness by definition is not uncomfortable—it is simply an unwillingness to expend energy. But laziness in an environment where we could be highly productive is a recipe for discomfort.

..we evolved with a focus on immediate returns..

Relaxation differs from laziness in that it is a reward for a completed task. Let yourself relax after a period of sustained effort..

all my life, i've been working overtime (if not by body, then by mind) through the hustle and bustle of my years. to fit in. to make others happy. to fulfill the expectations of others (including myself). to learn. to find myself. to live. but for the past year or so, i think i've been unwilling to 'expend energy,' except for the non-negotiable 'necessaries' and the things that i really want to include in my life. recently, i'm feeling bad for all the things i was/am not able to do and share with the people i love. but can i really force myself to always empty myself out, even for the things that are not directly related to what i want in my life? yeah, i still understand the meaning of 'pakikisama,' having duties to my respective communities, and the exploration of things outside 'my zone.' but up to what extent? and it doesn't seem right if i just do them for the sake of not being called boring, killjoy and lazy..